Sunday, July 20, 2008

Expect the unexpected

Man what a night. for those of you who don't know my daughter Sophie(28mths) has epilepsy. Her seizures have gotten SO much better but they're still there. She went from having them daily to having an average of 3 or 4 a WEEK. Last night she had an episode and after the episode was over, I sat on my bed holding her and I just cried.

Here I am supposed to be protecting my child and keeping her safe and It's at those times that I am completely and utterly helpless,And it sucks. Im not going to sit here and throw myself a pity party. I'll save that for another day :) but I realized last night that you HAVE to prepare yourself for the unexpected. If you don't the unexpected is going to kick your ass.

I brought her into this world thinking that I knew what it took to be a parent (I know,what an idiot,Right?) and slowly the unexpected had kicked my ass. I now just prepare myself for those unexpected moments and I am learning that you don't fall so hard when you are prepared to handle those moments.


Karyn with a Y said...

Oh Heather! You are a wonderful mother. Sophie is lucky to have you. You are one of the strongest people I know. Day in and day out you are taking her to doctors trying to get the best possible care for her. You are doing what is right. No matter how much we plan, read or research we are never fully prepared. We just do the best we can with what we have. Just please, don't forget to take care of yourself too!

Kim @ What's That Smell? said...

Heather, you made me cry, right before bed!

How scary that must be...we went through that with the dog and it was horrible, I can't even imagine watching your daughter..

You are so strong to endure this and Sophie is lucky to have you as her Mom.

Take care both of you!

Andrea said...

Sorry to hear you had another rough night Heather. I hope she is feeling better today and you can get some rest.