Man what a night. for those of you who don't know my daughter Sophie(28mths) has epilepsy. Her seizures have gotten SO much better but they're still there. She went from having them daily to having an average of 3 or 4 a WEEK. Last night she had an episode and after the episode was over, I sat on my bed holding her and I just cried.
Here I am supposed to be protecting my child and keeping her safe and It's at those times that I am completely and utterly helpless,And it sucks. Im not going to sit here and throw myself a pity party. I'll save that for another day :) but I realized last night that you HAVE to prepare yourself for the unexpected. If you don't the unexpected is going to kick your ass.
I brought her into this world thinking that I knew what it took to be a parent (I know,what an idiot,Right?) and slowly the unexpected had kicked my ass. I now just prepare myself for those unexpected moments and I am learning that you don't fall so hard when you are prepared to handle those moments.